Dear Love,
Dear Love,
Yeah, how have you been? Anyways you've always been there since day one and it’s always nice to have you around — lols positive vibes right. I've learned a lot about you to the point that I’m also helping others with their issues. Yet the world is cruel, humanity is so cruel; some people use you to get into other people's pants, some like to use you to cover up their loneliness and some people miss judged you blaming that it's your fault; many are afraid to fully experience you because of what others hear about you — even me lol I know right what a cliche but yeah, I mean I had experienced you before but it was unexpectedly and impossible especially from me then again I wonder if it was all a dream.
It was a surprise when you came by unexpectedly between us two because she was just a friend my best friend. We enjoyed a lot of stuff together, hmmm that’s probably why they say it’s not good to have a girl as a best friend because you might drop by lols. Ugh, this was so unexpected. But experiencing you is like an effortless feeling, it’s like we're geared towards to one day experiencing you. Everything from her hair falling off her shoulders to the way she joyfully walks to a simple smile. I could experience you through all the things she does effortlessly; you're like a really warm blanket during a cold morning when the sunlight touches our skin — you know you're just this warm feeling that’s indescribable, a feeling that others can't explain but can only express.
But why? experiencing you is everything a guy like me could imagine, you know coming from me a guy who shows others that you're still there that you're still very real and we can hope that one day God will be there with you, us, and everyone. But why? losing that one person felt weird and different like a bit of emptiness; lost and confused — that made my mind all jumbled up...it's like I don’t even know you anymore. Idk if this is what happens if we experience you at the end, if so then I don’t want this.
I do miss her dearly, you know my dear friend, I can just look up in the skies and see those clouds just as if I saw her the other day in her white dress. As the wind blows and it touches my skin it reminds me of how kind and gentle she was. When I wake up and hear the rain it just reminds me of how soft her voice was when she called my name and when I see the moon truly I am reminded how beautiful she was each day as she smiled away. I truly miss my dear friend, I can't believe I got to experience you through her but now she’s not here, and I could just blame you for giving such a warm feeling and taking it away for emptiness just like everyone else but NO! I thank you for giving me time to appreciate the little things that we did together, from little talks to just being each other's company to being more than that to being close friends that relied on each other.
I know I might not experience this romantic side of you anymore and it may hurt a lot but the experience is enough for this lifetime; I hope one day God can help me prove that your still there and still alive and helping others. I've also prayed to God about my situation that he guides both of us and if not this life then maybe the next we both can keep you until we age into eternity.
Sincerely,
a dearest
